So here's the thing, Mark and decided in September that we were going to actively try for another baby. It's November and I am already discouraged. I mean, realistically, did I really think it would happen in the first two months of trying? No. Kind of realistically, did I already have my grand reveal plan for the Christmas family gatherings? Yes.
I guess what I dread most is that it will take as long as it took with Karter to get pregnant. That was a lot of negative pregnancy tests, a lot of doctors appointments and a LOT of blood drawn. I'm hoping to not have to do all of that this time because I was really getting too friendly with the lab techs at CompuNet.
I ultimately know that God's timing is much wiser and grander than my own. While I think I NEED a baby now, God's probably like: "Hey girl, remember all those sleepless nights you whined about before? Enjoy these 11.5 hrs of peace and quiet now while you can." I know, looking back, that even though I wanted Karter after one month of trying, God knew exactly when to send him to us. So, while technically I'm being impatient, I know God's got this and I'm ok with that (but it would be totally awesome if He could just tell me when I'll get pregnant so I don't get my hopes up each month.)
Hopefully, I will soon be posting a picture letting the facebook world know that there is a baby in my belly (seriously, I have the greatest idea ever and I didn't even Pinterest it.) Until then, I am gladly taking donations of pregnancy tests because I don't think Mark will allow me to buy anymore (so I might be kind of obsessed...)
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